probably doesn't make sense to you

I find myself looking back over the year, thinking about the trials and the victories, the unbearable burdens and the overwhelming happiness...

So much can happen in a year.

Life altering events.
Forks in the road.
Decisions avoided.
Decisions made.
Mind numbing fears.
Days when you have the confidence of a queen.
Days when you want to cower under the safety of your covers.
Battles fought head on.
Set backs and faltering faith.
Victories won on your knees.
Anger and love somehow bound together in a confusing knot.
Hearts broken.
Hearts gloriously mended.


Certain years have the capability to hold an entire lifetime. This was one.

And yet, when the year has come and gone, life has a funny way of being the same as it was exactly a year ago.

Kristy and I still sit on the same old couch
as the same old maids,
drinking out of the same old glasses,
solving the same old world's problems.
(Which are still solved from the same Old Book)

Everything changed this year, yet nothing changed.
I guess the change is in us. God changed us. All of us.

Someday the dim recollection of those growing pains will bring just a wise smile - these days it brings a grateful heart and an embarrassingly leaky faucet.

We serve a great God.